At the moment, I am sitting on the couch inside my apartment. Yet, I am experiencing a very strange feeling.
Has this ever happened to you…you are on your way to start your vacation or driving to some distant destination and after a good distance of driving, you start to wonder….did I lock my house? Or, did I leave the oven on?
Well, even though, those thoughts are not occurring to me, I am experiencing the same feeling in my gut. Some emptiness or void, I can’t explain it.
I have a very good life. I should be very thankful for it. There is very few flaws you can see in my life. I am not talking about flaws in me, obviously if you know anything about me, that basket is quite full. I have a very good job. I have co-workers I love working with, who I look forward to seeing each day. I am fed three or four, sometimes even more times within the day. I have friends to look after me. A family that keeps up with everything going on in my life. Yes, I have a good life. One I should be very thankful for.
To my parents and teachers who brought me up to be what I am today, to my friends and family who support me each and every day, to my God who listens to everything I say…Thank you!
abstract. weird. senseless. this is post is a blabber more than a blog.
its been a cute few weeks in my apartment. it gives me a sense of pride to think that i am standing on my two feet. harsh reality, the hidden truth. i am scared to stand on my own two feet. i want to see the faces and that outstretched hands ready to catch me when i fall. its not a lack of confidence. i might seem like a needy person to you right now…but then again, you probably already knew this about me.
i have kept the bravado up and it is working quite well. i feel the machismo and the manhood settling into my bones. but the little girl inside of me obviously feels lonely and sad. awww! pity me!
work. busy. its been going good. weeks have scheduled tasks and never a break in some ways. it is a great opportunity though. so i should not be complaining. i love my friends at work. they have however found a “new” game, which i don’t quite enjoy. its trying to discover all the ways that they can make me feel uncomfortable. NOT cool!
many things happened. not for you to know. but for me to be reminded. remember what happened in philly last weekend? and then i went to the fingerlakes for a party with my buddy doug. good times. gayle is awesome. awesome.
lucky to have known the people i know. blessed to have the friends that i have.
random: its tough to hold my composure. to keep the cool. the more i buffer. the more i struggle. to keep smiling through the roughest rain and the toughest hills…thats what im striving for. maybe the bunny slopes seem too steep for me. give me a break. im a big baby.
god forgive me for my inconsideration and self indulgence. try and love the people around you. try to see the world in through their eyes. put a smile on their face. and do something nice without expecting it back. spread a little bit of joy!
did you hear about the google OS?
they are coming out with an operating system late next year
its going to be called Google Chrome OS
and it will be streamlined for faster startup and internet use
and in my mind this is how this plays out:
microsoft: you know what...i want your money google.
google: you have enough money...lemme do what i do best
microsoft: no...i want your money too
google: be nice now
microsoft: i raise you...BING.COM
google: check
microsoft: but i raised you
google: fine....i raise you CHROME OS
microsoft: ummm…ummm…
Nikon D40 6.1 Megapixel Digital SLR Camera 3X Zoom Kit Outfit, with 18-55mm f/3.5-5.6G ED II AF-S DX Zoom Nikkor Lens - Refurbished by Nikon U.S.A.
Simple & Light Start to DSLR
Pros: Good Battery Life, Easy to Use, Great Zoom, Fast Shutter Speed, Good sized screen, Excellent in Low Light, Nice Features and Settings
Cons: Bulky, Poor Image Stabilization
Best Uses: Portraits, Travel, Everyday Photos, Outdoors, Home, Weddings/Events
Describe Yourself: Photo Enthusiast
I have always been amused with photography and have been experimenting with my point and shoot Canon's. My online research showed me that the Nikon D40 is the best camera for me to start on the DSLR spectrum.
Why Nikon D40?
It is cheap!
It is easy to use!!
It produces great picture!!!
The Ups: It is a fully functional SLR settings and tweaks (has everything such as aperture priority, ISO settings, etc) a photographer would like to tweak his art with. With added beauty of the Nikkor lenses to every picture, almost anything looks gorgeous through this camera! I also like that I can keep buying more lenses to enjoy this camera even more.
The Downs: Okay, so inevitable, every beauty has its flaws. There is no major downs to the advertised product. But, when you actually hold this camera in your hands, it does tend to be a bit much. So, use the neck strap and try not to swing around too much. The pixels, if you care, is only 6MP...only?! Well, for me 6MP is more than enough, but I understand, some like the option to magnify through the pixels for a better picture within the frame. You want this, I suggest getting the Nikon D40X or Nikon D60 for $100 - $200 more.
The Lens: The 18mm-55mm Nikkor lens (without VR) is great. It is good for the potrait snaps and close ups. This is the only lens that comes with the 'kit'...although there are many deals that sells you an additional lens as well. The lack of VR is evident when taking low-light photography or if you try taking a picture at a slower shutter speed.
Dandelion outside my house.
: Made with Product
Close up of a garden decoration
: Made with Product
So here I am home, still a day away from my much awaited, much loved Nikon D40. I hope and pray this shipment gets to me safe and sound and that I can continue to love this baby for a very very long time.
Random: I am linking this ‘Windows Live Writer’ that I have been using for the past couple of months. Yes, I realize my blogging frequency has been pretty low in these few months, but this does make blogging a bit easier and adds a tiny bit more fun to the process.
Random: People make money out of their blogs?! Why can’t I do that?!!! Oh, yes…I have to write important stuff don’t I? Shucks!
Story: Yesterday. We are sitting at breakfast and talking about the lottery. How did the topic come about? I don’t know. There is $222 million at play for the Powerball game at the time. I am sure, many of you with a bunch of friendly coworkers have done this at some point…or else, the point is yet to come for you….we decided to pool our money into a bulky ticket. And if we were ever so lucky as to win anything, the proceeds will be equally split between the ten of us. Thus, today ten of us got the money together and I bought the tickets. Now we wait and see if there is any luck amongst us.
Life Update: I have been working most of the time. I am trying to go to the gym regularly. It is not working out very well. Exciting things going on for me at the moment will be just the camera that I bought. I might give you a review from the amateur user perspective once I get used to this beauty. I am house hunting still. I saw a few places on Tuesday. I don’t want to rush the process, but would not like to stagnate the hunt either. Its a slow, dragged out, headachy process. But, it must be done. Brother Phil in India. I am missing my inner circle, which will never be the same now with Aarthi gone to India.
I have been using Twitter a lot recently and I think my twitter use might be inversely proportional to my blogging activity. Sad! I know! Anyways….I’ll keep tweeting and updating this blog once in a while like now….and maybe eventually start to make some use with it….like make some dough for instance (only if I don’t win that lotto that is!)
I am sitting on my couch at home, in front of the TV that is not on, listening to some random music online. Also, I am doing my laundry which I have put off for two weeks now…that’s quite a load to do now. I am feeling somewhat sorry for myself being that it is a three day weekend (for Memorial Day weekend) and I don’t have any big plans. Just relaxing and taking it easy. This also makes me think that I am forgetting some of my responsibilities. Sure, I will remember these things I never have the time for some time during the busy week that is still ahead.
My brother is in India now. So is my friend Aarthi. They both left just days apart. As little as my interaction with either one might have been, I certainly feel a void now knowing that they are so far away. A sense of loneliness maybe, but more like being lost. I have always had friends and family me to lead my way or at least give me a nod or a shake to agree or disagree with my decisions, choices and directions I choose to live. At the moment it seems like I am the captain of a ship in which only I am the passenger. I can take this baby where ever I want to, yet I am sitting idly in the waters waiting for a current to drag me along.
I am in need for my vacation….soooooooo desperately!!!! Also, to pick myself up, I am going to buy me a Nikon D40 this week! :)
